Believe in yourself

Hey readers, I apologize for not blogging for a bit. Most of my blogs have been my Sims stories. Thank you to everyone who has been following along with the story of The Reese generation. Right now I am currently preparing to return to college and pursue a Master’s degree. I have some of the application finished . All that I need is to write a personal statement and submit my prose. This is something that I have been brainstorming since January. Honestly, I believe that I can do this but, you know that there is always that fear. Can I do this?
Will I get in?

Yet, I spent the past five years wavering back and forth about returning to school. Right now for me, this is a goal that I will achieve. No matter what happens, I am proud of myself that I took a chance. I haven’t told anyone about this because I feel as though I will receive the same feedback that I did in ’08. Those who I discussed this with back then did their best to deter me.

‘You will never get a job with a Masters.”

” Why are you going back to accumulate more debt”.

The fact of the matter is I have to live my own life. Everyone has an opinion but ultimately I make the decision. I believe that I can do this. I do anything that I put my mind to. I believe that if you want something bad enough you have to go out and get it. You have to fight the demons and the negativity. Never give up on your dreams or yourself just because there is no one else who believes in you. My time is coming soon. I am ready for all the blessings that will come.

Take care everyone.

 

A truce between Millenials , Generation X and Baby Boomers…

According to the American Student Assistance website, there are 37 million people with outstanding student loan debt.

Of that 37 million, fourteen are people under the age of 30 otherwise known as millennial generation (my generation).

Soon, the debt will hit the one trillion-dollar mark.

Time and time again, I find myself skimming through Yahoo articles regarding this issue.

So many people have an opinion about this current state of affairs.

The responses are 75 percent negative but, 25 percent positive.

Some people feel as though the debt should be forgiven.

The blame does not rest on the youth but, on the government.

A number of people feel like this problem should rest solely upon the borrower.

Most people choose to completely separate themselves from this issue citing that “they” made the right choice by joining the military , taking up a trade or attending a cheaper college (2 year or otherwise).

In the past six years, I learned that there is no right or wrong answer in this situation.

I graduated from college six years ago.

This was a year before the economic collapse of 2008.

My dream was to work in media.

I wanted to start from the bottom and work my way up.

Returning home after graduation was only temporary.

I mapped everything out when I was 17.

I planned on working for four years after college, moving out, saving up my money and obtaining my Master’s degree by 25.

Things did not work out as I planned.

Yet, I still hold on tightly to the hope that one day I will achieve my goal.

This is why I am empathetic towards those who are in peril regarding this crisis.

I can not judge anyone for their debt when I am a piece of that pie.

My mother paid for my education out-of-pocket but, Sallie Mae paid for room and board.

I had no other choice.

On Yahoo, there is so much hostility against my generation because of this debt.

So many people feel that this crisis is of our own making.

It was not.

Rather than the battle between Baby Boomers and Generation X vs. the Millenials, I wish that people would declare a truce.

The mistakes of the past regarding student loans contributed to the mistakes of this day and age.

We are all in this together.

I believe one day the very same people posting negatively about this issue will open their eyes and realize the truth.

One day soon.

Violet.

Regret and a second chance

Being a virgin is hard but, so is being sexually active.

No matter what decision you make or have made know that everything is going to be alright.

If you have chosen to wait until you are married to have sex…that is okay.

If your first time was uneventful or something that you want to forget….that is okay.

If you wear a promise ring,

made a pact with God

or

just wanted to wait for the right person….

that is okay.

There is always a second chance .

The beauty of life is freedom of choice and free will.

What you decide to do with your life after you face adversity is up to you.

That is the greatest gift that God could give mankind.

No matter what you believe know that whatever choice you make ,

whatever happens to you,

the morning will come and a new day will begin.

Every time you open your eyes is another reminder that God is not done with you yet.

If everyone turns their back on you, persecutes or abandons you for your choices…

know that you are never alone,

no matter how bad things get,

no matter how tough it seems.

 Violet

Holding on…

It is so easy to say that there is no hope in this world.

The new year has brought sorrow and destruction to so many.

Sometimes, it is very hard to sit and watch the news without cringing.

On Monday, I sat in front of the television in silence watching the coverage of the Tragedy at the Boston Marathon.

It is so sad that there are people in the world who harbor such malice against others.

Countless individuals wandered the streets in shock and horror.

Three citizens lost their lives including an eight year old child.

I do believe that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

Life is so short and so fragile.

Everyday is a blessing.

Every morning is truly a gift.

It seems as though the world is so bleak and empty sometimes but, there is hope.

Hold on.

Don’t let go.

There is a break through coming.

Don’t let this world get to you.

Take time to look at the beauty around you.

There is a silver lining to this dark cloud.

Violet.

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People are in your life for seasons.

” People are in your life for seasons”

Kanye West : Heard them say.

That is a song lyric that I reflect upon from time to time.

It puts me in a state of mind that releases all regret.

I spent far too long regretting what was out of my control.

Seven years ago, I felt like I was on top of the world.

 My part time job was fantastic.

I started my first relationship with someone who I clicked with.

I was apart of a circle of friends that shared a common interest with.

The sky was the limit for me.

One day, everything fell apart.

My eyes opened so wide that I began to see everything for what it really was.

My relationship had no meaning to my significant other.

At the time, I was not ready to  take things to another level with someone whom I barely knew.

I learned from MySpace that there were other women in the picture as well.

I broke up with him on Valentine’s Day .

I was laid off from my job after working for a year and four months.

My circle of friends was not what it appeared.

Being unemployed made me feel a little down and they only seemed to drag me even further into the darkness.

My closest friend relished the fact that things were falling apart for me. She started to hang with my other friends and ditch me.

There was another who succeeded in her plot to tear us apart.

It was hard to climb out of the darkness but, I did.

I spent almost three years all alone and broke.

God helped me through it all.

He never gave up on me and I believe he never will.

After all that I endured in the past seven years, God led me down a path of self discovery.

When I felt like I was a failure, he convinced me to continue.

My mother stayed by me trying her hardest to help me cope.

Even when others tried their best to make me feel inferior, she came to my defense.

At this moment, I am not taking this time for granted.

I believe that there is always a silver lining to every cloud.

Mine is showing itself little by little.

For those who read this and are dealing with a situation, know that it will get better.

The opinions of others do not matter so long as you believe in you.

There is no timeline in life.

No one knows what the set path is.

All that a person can do is keep on going

If you feel like you want to end it consider what you will miss.

Believe in yourself regardless of what others think.

Never let go of your dreams.

Don’t allow anyone to make you feel inferior.

Believe it.

Things will work out in the end.

 Kanye West was correct in his lyric that ” people are in your life for seasons, and anything that happens is for a reason”.

I am walking on air…..

I will never let go of my imagination.

There are worlds in my mind that I have not yet unlocked.

I will never be too old to watch cartoons.

There will always be a spark within me that will set me apart from others.

There is nothing wrong with being an individual.

It is okay to have fun once in a while.

No matter what age you are, its okay to be you.

The world needs their individuals, creative types and those who break the mold.

People who make life interesting.

Never be afraid to stand out.

Stay true to you.

3 years of freedom….

 
 
 
 
It is hard to be positive when things are not going well in a person’s life. A few years ago, I quit my job after working at American Apparel for almost an entire year. I dealt with the most unrealistic situations that made me question whether or not I was dreaming. I felt like a foster child being pushed from home to home with no say so or no opinion. My work was never good enough and it seemed as though all that I did was screw up. I spent most of my pay buying clothing that I barely had enough to pay my bills. The demands of the employers were so much so that I found myself unhappy to even go to work.
 
I was older than my fellow employee and was reminded of this fact constantly. My fellow employees would slack off and the blame was placed on me. More tears were shed while working for this company than in any of the worst situations in my life. The day that I quit, I stood up straight and “faced the gun”. It was hard but, I surprised myself. My boss sat completely taken aback. After all that he did to me I decided that enough was enough. I rode the train home and cried tears of joy that I was finally free.
 
I made the best out of my unemployment though in these past years. I learned more about myself than I ever would have if I stayed. I caught up on all of the television shows that I had missed. My television show DVD collection grew into a massive pile. I started reading again after a hiatus during college. I fell in love with The Hunger Games and Millennium Trilogy. I attended a few concerts of artists I missed over the years like Lady Gaga, Alice In Chains, The Deftones and A Perfect Circle. I caught up on lost sleep and just took time for me.
 
Being without a bi-weekly paycheck was hard but, freedom was worth it.
 
I am still in search of work trying my best to cope with the reviving economy. I know that it will be a bit of a wait but, i can handle it. Good things are coming my way, including a deadline for a graduate school application.
 
Wish me luck!!