Sorry to leave you hanging!!

Happy New Year everyone,

I apologize for leaving you all hanging. The recent deadline of a graduate school application kept me extremely busy. I spent most nights up late trying to perfect my personal statement. The battle has weighed me down but I submitted it yesterday. I have a few months to wait for a response. No matter what happens I am optimistic for what this year will bring. Also, I am applying to a few more schools as well. This is something that I feared for many years. I doubted myself and my ability to be respected as a writer. Someday soon, I will enter graduate school , work hard and make a name for myself. I never gave myself the chance to be known or even allow something that I wrote to be published. One of my professor’s published my work for me when I was still in college. It was an awesome surprise but in the same respect it scared me. However, I am ready for something amazing to happen. I am opening myself up to receive all of the blessings that are coming my way.

Anyways everyone, I will keep you posted.

Later,

Violet

Dear Recent College Grads..

Dear Recent College Graduates,

When I was eighteen years old, I had a plan.

I would graduate college, get a job, finish my novel, move out, pay down my loans and attend graduate school by the time I was 25.

There was even a clause for marriage by 29 and a bundle of joy by 31.

My 29th birthday is less than two months away and I did not complete a single goal.

The reason is because it took me a decade to figure out that life does not always go as planned.

Sometimes a monkey wrench flies straight through your plans when you least expect it.

I am two months from my 29th birthday,

right now I do not have any children,

nor am I planning on tying the knot any time soon.

I am working with a career counselor to find employment.

My student loans are in deferment.

I live at home with my mother and four cats.

I will attend graduate school in the fall of 2014.

My novel is 85 percent finished.

Things happen for a reason.

I was once a recent college grad, bright-eyed and bushy-tailed.

The gifts and congratulations poured in nonstop once I graduated.

A year later when I was unable to find employment at first, then came the negative nellies.

Looking back, I wonder why I allowed them to get under my skin.

I achieved something awesome yet, I did not feel good enough.

Trust me when I say, that there is nothing wrong with cutting negative people out of your life.

It is okay to dream.

Not every college grad falls right into their careers.

Not everyone succeeds at the same time.

You will succeed and become something fantastic.

Things will not always be bad in your life.

A college education is not a waste of time in any way.

You are never too old for anything in life.

Your time will come.

You have your whole life ahead of you.

Regret and a second chance

Being a virgin is hard but, so is being sexually active.

No matter what decision you make or have made know that everything is going to be alright.

If you have chosen to wait until you are married to have sex…that is okay.

If your first time was uneventful or something that you want to forget….that is okay.

If you wear a promise ring,

made a pact with God

or

just wanted to wait for the right person….

that is okay.

There is always a second chance .

The beauty of life is freedom of choice and free will.

What you decide to do with your life after you face adversity is up to you.

That is the greatest gift that God could give mankind.

No matter what you believe know that whatever choice you make ,

whatever happens to you,

the morning will come and a new day will begin.

Every time you open your eyes is another reminder that God is not done with you yet.

If everyone turns their back on you, persecutes or abandons you for your choices…

know that you are never alone,

no matter how bad things get,

no matter how tough it seems.

 Violet

The loss of a pet

My kitten died Sunday evening.

He was eleven months and 16 days old.

I loved him as though he was my very own son.

I kept him warm when he was a few weeks old.

The little one suffered from diarrhea which burned up his little bottom.

It has been a hard week without him but, I know that he is in a better place.

No other animal will ever replace my kitten.

This is not the first time that I have experienced a pets death.

My cat passed away from kidney failure last February.

My kitten held a special place in my heart.

Life is so short and so delicate.

I am okay knowing that my little one is no longer in pain.

He is heaven looking down with my other animals who passed away.

More importantly, my aunt is taking care of him now.

She loved animals so much that her life was dedicated to her cats.

This love was shared with my mother who continued her legacy.

Rest in Peace

“Mini Pocket”

5/5/12-4/21/13

No matter how sick an animal or a person is nothing will prepare you for their passing.

You can sleep easier knowing that they have ascended to a better place.

Their time in the world made such an impact that they will be missed but, never forgotten.

Holding on…

It is so easy to say that there is no hope in this world.

The new year has brought sorrow and destruction to so many.

Sometimes, it is very hard to sit and watch the news without cringing.

On Monday, I sat in front of the television in silence watching the coverage of the Tragedy at the Boston Marathon.

It is so sad that there are people in the world who harbor such malice against others.

Countless individuals wandered the streets in shock and horror.

Three citizens lost their lives including an eight year old child.

I do believe that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

Life is so short and so fragile.

Everyday is a blessing.

Every morning is truly a gift.

It seems as though the world is so bleak and empty sometimes but, there is hope.

Hold on.

Don’t let go.

There is a break through coming.

Don’t let this world get to you.

Take time to look at the beauty around you.

There is a silver lining to this dark cloud.

Violet.

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People are in your life for seasons.

” People are in your life for seasons”

Kanye West : Heard them say.

That is a song lyric that I reflect upon from time to time.

It puts me in a state of mind that releases all regret.

I spent far too long regretting what was out of my control.

Seven years ago, I felt like I was on top of the world.

 My part time job was fantastic.

I started my first relationship with someone who I clicked with.

I was apart of a circle of friends that shared a common interest with.

The sky was the limit for me.

One day, everything fell apart.

My eyes opened so wide that I began to see everything for what it really was.

My relationship had no meaning to my significant other.

At the time, I was not ready to  take things to another level with someone whom I barely knew.

I learned from MySpace that there were other women in the picture as well.

I broke up with him on Valentine’s Day .

I was laid off from my job after working for a year and four months.

My circle of friends was not what it appeared.

Being unemployed made me feel a little down and they only seemed to drag me even further into the darkness.

My closest friend relished the fact that things were falling apart for me. She started to hang with my other friends and ditch me.

There was another who succeeded in her plot to tear us apart.

It was hard to climb out of the darkness but, I did.

I spent almost three years all alone and broke.

God helped me through it all.

He never gave up on me and I believe he never will.

After all that I endured in the past seven years, God led me down a path of self discovery.

When I felt like I was a failure, he convinced me to continue.

My mother stayed by me trying her hardest to help me cope.

Even when others tried their best to make me feel inferior, she came to my defense.

At this moment, I am not taking this time for granted.

I believe that there is always a silver lining to every cloud.

Mine is showing itself little by little.

For those who read this and are dealing with a situation, know that it will get better.

The opinions of others do not matter so long as you believe in you.

There is no timeline in life.

No one knows what the set path is.

All that a person can do is keep on going

If you feel like you want to end it consider what you will miss.

Believe in yourself regardless of what others think.

Never let go of your dreams.

Don’t allow anyone to make you feel inferior.

Believe it.

Things will work out in the end.

 Kanye West was correct in his lyric that ” people are in your life for seasons, and anything that happens is for a reason”.

I am walking on air…..

I will never let go of my imagination.

There are worlds in my mind that I have not yet unlocked.

I will never be too old to watch cartoons.

There will always be a spark within me that will set me apart from others.

There is nothing wrong with being an individual.

It is okay to have fun once in a while.

No matter what age you are, its okay to be you.

The world needs their individuals, creative types and those who break the mold.

People who make life interesting.

Never be afraid to stand out.

Stay true to you.