For me 2013 is going to be positive..

For 2013, I pledge to work hard to achieve my dreams. I want to go back to school soon to pursue some form of higher education. I have a few schools in mind. I just want to give it the old college try. I already have a bachelor’s degree in English Writing so I want to obtain a Masters next. I am not sure what type of degree yet. I am going to visit one of the schools next week.

This year I will believe wholeheartedly in myself regardless of what others say. After my college graduation, I felt so low. There were so many people who felt like I was a failure. For a while, I believed them but, I know that I am a better person for it. I set aside my future for a bit helping out with the care of grandmother. After her death, I decided to take time for me. I began to reflect upon my life. There is still so much time left and she would be so disappointed if I gave up.

I started working on my novel again in 2010. I have tweaked it and will finish it this year. I can do it. I believe in me. Some people say that being unemployed gives you two roads. You can either take the red pill or the blue pill. The red pill makes you smaller and the blue pill makes you bigger. I will consume the blue pill in 2013.

Good things are coming my way…..I truly believe it.

A Christmas lesson…

I was hurt last night but, I did not let that destroy my Christmas holiday. I lost most of my family over the years so the holidays are a sad time for me. I spent the evening with boyfriend’s family only to be treated unfairly by his cousin. She declared that there was not enough food for me to eat with the family. I had already eaten at the movie theatre that afternoon while watching Django Unchained. I really liked the movie, a lot. When we arrived at my boyfriend’s aunts house I was under the impression that we would stay for a minute and then go back to his house for pizza. I had no idea that this was a dinner of some sort.

I found myself caught in the middle of an embarrassing situation. It was one that sent me outside in my coat with my phone. I called my mother choking back tears explaining what happened. My boyfriend came outside to tell me that there was more food but, I did not want to go back in. I wanted to leave after the way I was treated. He agreed and we drove back to his apartment. It was explained to me that this is the way that his cousin acts towards new people. The rest of his family does not pay her any mind.

The holidays are the saddest time for me and my family. There were only six of us and now there are three. I miss my grandparents and my aunt so much. The last thing that I wanted to do was to shame them by engaging this woman. I was the bigger person by leaving the house to get some air. She did not ruin my holiday, though. I spent the rest of the evening watching King of the Hill and eating Organic cheese puffs. So all was not lost.

My Christmas lesson was it is better to walk away.

Happy Holidays,everyone.

Have a blessed New Years.

And be kind to one another.

Acceptance of loss during the holidays…

 

This morning I spent hours blogging and reminiscing that I lost track of time.

The sun was rising and the early morning news shows were coming on.

I stumbled upon so many different topics that users blog about.

One in particular is grief. This holiday will be a somber moment for me.

I lost my grandmother the day before Mother’s day.

She meant so much to me.

I found solace in each and every post that I read which were written beautifully.

 The grieving process is never easy but, at least I know that she is in a better place.

Now she is reunited with those whom she lost including my aunt and my grandfather.

I was blessed to spent time with her and learn from her wisdom.

I will enjoy the Christmas holiday knowing that she is no longer in pain.

Happy holidays everyone.

Be safe and enjoy yourselves

To those who lost someone in the past or present , there is hope.

Have faith.

New York Comic Con 2012 and me

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2012 is ending and I am looking forward to the 2013 conventions in particular New York Comic Con. I attended last years festivities as a gift to myself. My birth month is October so I try to do something awesome at least once in that month every year. I made the decision to attend this years as well which was fantastic. There is just something about cosplay, graphic novels, comic books and a building full of fellow nerds that uplifts you. I came home with bags of free swag and a smile on my face.

I sat through numerous panels but, a few in particular come to mind. I learned that Beautiful Creatures , a novel by Kami Garcia and Margaret Stohl is being released 2.13.13 as a motion picture. The trailer for this movie was fantastic. One of my birthday presents was a copy of the book and I love it. I fell in love with a show called Haven on SYFY which I tried watching the first episode of season one but, it failed to capture my interest. I just bought the season one DVD and I really like the show. I want to go to Maine on vacation.

I watched trailers for a few very scary movies ( The Conjuring, Evil dead 3D and Carrie)and a new season of The Venture Brothers. The best panel of all was for AMC’s The Walking Dead. I was so excited to watch clips from Season 3 and a never before seen trailer. The actors were very humble even towards a massive dedicated fan base. All in all, I had fun that weekend but, when it was over I slept for like two days 🙂

This year is ending and I am optimistic about 2013. I feel like good things are on the way. 2012 was full of ups and downs. Even more so than years prior but, there is a silver lining to the dark cloud. I hope that everyone has a happy and safe holiday.

Ellen DeGeneres has a saying and it is so true…Be kind to one another.

Drink some egg nog for me.

 

Candy is a virtue not a vice.

I write the best at night…

Candy is a virtue not a vice.

I am a night writer and I learned to embrace this new-found gift.

My muse went on a vacation for a few.

He only just emerged on Black Friday.

I am overjoyed.

Now I can return to my original prose and create a spectacular ending.

I think that I will post some of my work on a future blog for feed back.

For now I have to do some mondo editing 🙂

Sailor Moon brings back memories….

Serena aka. Sailor Moon

My favorite cartoon when I was a little was Sailor Moon.

I loved Serena so much. She will always be my favorite princess ever.

I loved how her character was just an awkward teen who had to grow into her royal status.

Cartoon Network used to air the show in the early to mid 2000 and I wish it would bring the show back.

I always think about being a little girl sitting in front of the TV

wishing that I had special moon powers and a cat named Artemis.

My cats never talked but, I used to imagine they did.

One little lady bug traveling over the concrete of life.

Hola!!!

Writing for me is spilling my soul upon a blank page. I wake up in the morning wondering what will emerge from my mind. What will my imagination create? Writer’s block grips me sometimes but, I over come it. I battle with my ideas and come out on top.

I created this blog to share my world.

I have a vivid imagination which is the greatest gift , I could ever have.

My nickname is Lady bug because I find beauty in negative spaces. Years of self-reflection and love , have uplifted me.

I am extremely greatful for every day that I wake up.